"How do you catch a falling star?
How do you fix a broken heart?
How can we go back to re-write this from the start?
Back when our world glowed from just a spark?
Stuck inside this atmosphere
Watching my light just disappear.
And all the things I’ve forgotten while you were here
Now I remember them all so clear.
Just give me one more time
I’ll swim through the high tide.
I’ll stand in the front lines.
I’ll give it all just to see your face.
And tell you its alright
To hold you for one night.
Just give me one more time.”
"How do you catch a falling star?
"One more day
One more time
One more sunset, maybe I’d be satisfied
But then again
I know what it would do
Leave me wishing still, for one more day with you”
"First thing I’d do is pray for time to crawl
Then I’d unplug the telephone
And keep the TV off
I’d hold you every second
Say a million I love you’s
That’s what I’d do, with one more day with you”
"Last night I had a crazy dream
A wish was granted just for me
It could be for anything
I didn’t ask for money
Or a mansion in Malibu
I simply wished, for one more day with you”
I think it is time I get help - I am going to start looking into getting treatment for Chronic depression. I am tired of feeling like I am just buying time until the inevitable. I cannot take this much longer. The last few weeks have been torture - I haven’t been getting sleep because of the nightmares, I have been zoning out and not remembering all day, I have been constantly thinking unimaginable things… I am getting weaker and weaker and I just cannot grab onto anything to hold me up. I just want to say I am sorry to everyone I have hurt, let down, disappointed, and so on. Ryan, Brandon, John… And to all of you guys… I am sorry. No matter what happens to me, I am thankful for and completely undeserving of the support and love I have been shown the last few years. I can only hope I have made a difference, even if just a small one.
I won’t lie, I have no knowledge whatsoever on the subject of nymphomaniacs. I had to google it so if I am wrong, blame google. Sexuality and relationships often clash, which leads to cheating and other stuff that can make commited relationships fall apart. Now a sex drive is something natural and that you can’t control, but how you act on that sex drive can be controlled. If you cannot find a way to please yourself, or be satisfied with the sex you two have, then maybe it is best that you seek someone with a similar drive or an open relationship. I am certainty no expert in the subject, but my gut reaction was to tell you to remember why you are in a relationship… It isn’t for sex (most likely) so you need to either be content or leave so that you both can find happiness. Or open up to him about the subject and tell him the truth, no matter how intimidating and painful it may be. I have a feeling you are trying to say that you have been cheating and if that is the case, you cannot blame anyone but yourself. If you cannot control your urges, then you need to seek help or at least tell him so he can decide whether to continue the relationship or not. I wish I could help with this but it just isn’t something I know about.
The idea that Atheists don’t want to believe in heaven is false. Who wouldn’t want a place where after we die, all our struggles end and we are surrounded by those we love for all eternity? I would love to be able to believe in that… But I can’t because it is a myth that is based in no fact. There is no evidence that heaven or hell exists, only fairy tales and folk lore. Furthermore, you may think believing in a god or believing in heaven doesn’t hurt anyone, but you would be dead wrong. Religion is the number one cause of oppression, murder, war and division in this world, not to mention the incredible ignorance it surrounds people in. But that isn’t even my main issue with those who have “faith” in heaven’s existence, it is that people spend all their time trying to get to paradise, that they forget to look around at here and now. So many people look up at the clouds for angels, but few understand how clouds work. So many people wish on stars, yet few of them know about the cosmos. So many people look at nature and think that is how it has always been, completely ignoring the millions and millions of years it took for our world to begin looking like it does today. You want paradise… Look around. Make a difference in the world right now and you will find paradise. Don’t spend your life wondering about what happens after you die, because first you must live.
"A whole new world
With new horizons to pursue
I’ll chase them anywhere
There’s time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you”
"A whole new world - Don’t you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see - Hold your breath - it gets better
I’m like a shooting star
I’ve come so far
I can’t go back to where I used to be”
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky”
"I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, Prince, now when did
You last let your heart decide?”
In almost 5 years of news reporting and journalism, I have been impacted by countless events and stories from across the globe, but very few have been as difficult to get through as the recent passing of Robin Williams. In many ways, I not only idolized him, but I saw myself in him, so the fact that he took his own life was excruciating for me. A wave of painful memories from Ryan’s passing and my own struggles washed over me and for a second, I was paralyzed, but then I remembered why I idolized Robin in the first place - His resilience. Since Ryan died, I have taken the phrase “it gets better” and used it as motivation for myself, and while most of the credit for me being here today belongs to my best friend Brandon, if I did not believe that phrase, nothing would be able to comfort me. Ladies and gentlemen, sometimes it is impossible to see though a storm, but never forget as long as you keep moving, you will emerge from the darkness and in the end, the rain will be replaced with a rainbow. Robin Williams forgot that, likely in a moment of sheer panic and disconnect that few of us have survived, but as my fortune cookie read today; “He who believes is strong, he who doubts is weak.” It gets better, never doubt that. Robin Williams was an extraordinary man who will be missed long after the headlines fade. I can only hope that he, as so many others, have found peace. R.I.P. Captain, may your ship grace the stars and sail on for all eternity.
I am going to curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep now. It is terrifying to know that someone I looked up to for overcoming his struggles is gone by his own hand. I am literally gutted by this because I saw myself in Robin Williams. It is just so devastating and I cannot handle my emotions right now.
It really is heartbreaking to learn of Robin Williams’ passing, but heart wrenching to know it was likely suicide. I have followed his struggles over the last several years as he battled addiction and alcoholism, depression, and health issues, but this is just devastating. As someone who has experienced these problems personally and in those closest to me, it is a very harsh blow and a very strong wake up call because all too often, those who laugh the loudest, and love most passionately, are the ones who are dying inside and need the most help. And all too often, those who have overcome such major struggles end up relapsing in the end. Many people will judge Robin for his actions this morning, but I will not. I will simply hang my head in sorrow and remember what great entertainment he brought us all. Robin Williams was a voice, a face, a personality that touched people across the world, he brought us joy, he brought us tears of laughter, he brought us memories, and for that, I thank him. Tonight, many of us will mourn Robin Williams the actor and comedian, but tonight, I mourn Robin Williams, the troubled man with a big heart. May he rest in eternal peace. Carpe Diem.