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I am so confused and scared… My dad asked me to stay, to not move out… I am not sure what to do. Should I go start my life elsewhere and leave the pain behind or should I stay and risk losing all the progress I have made with myself? Should I risk going out into the world alone or should I stay in the place that makes me feel alone? These are the questions that haunt me. Both have pros and cons… I am just scared… I am afraid if I leave, I will lose the few people who care (My mom and a few friends) and if I stay, I will end up back on the dark path that has nearly killed me so many times before. I just do not know anymore… I am truly lost, a shell of myself, a shadow on the ground…

I am so confused and scared… My dad asked me to stay, to not move out… I am not sure what to do. Should I go start my life elsewhere and leave the pain behind or should I stay and risk losing all the progress I have made with myself? Should I risk going out into the world alone or should I stay in the place that makes me feel alone? These are the questions that haunt me. Both have pros and cons… I am just scared… I am afraid if I leave, I will lose the few people who care (My mom and a few friends) and if I stay, I will end up back on the dark path that has nearly killed me so many times before. I just do not know anymore… I am truly lost, a shell of myself, a shadow on the ground…

Posted 3 months ago
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  1. 4srj1jep said: I say move out. you’ll have freedom, but you won’t be alone. even if it’s just a few blocks, the distance makes everyone appreciate each other more. you will *eventually* move out and start your own household.
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